Post by The Big PINK One♥ on Mar 24, 2007 18:30:24 GMT -5
I read this article written by this teenager named Amanda, who seemed to still be traumatized by her ordeal:
What Do You Think?
I was 16 years old when I made the two
biggest mistakes of my life. The first
mistake I made was losing my virginity to
someone I thought I loved, and loved me
back. I knew I was making a mistake, as soon
as it happened. Not only did I lose my
virginity at a young age, but it was
unprotected. I got this feeling that
something bad was going on, then I started
to worry. All that went through my head
was ?What if I am pregnant??. At the time
that I had all these thought going through
my head, my boyfriend and the guy I thought
I love was in Florida. I didn?t tel him
about me worrying until I had a reason to
worry.
My reason came about half way in to his
family vacation, I was 2 weeks late on my
period. Most people would wait a little
longer cause you never know why you could be
late. But my period was always on time. I
started to worry even more, and then I
decided to tell my boyfriend. One night when
he called me on his cell phone in Florida, I
told his I had bad news and he needed to go
for a walk and get away from his family. I
tod him what I thought and asked him what
should we do. He had no idea. I took it upon
my self to go to my parents. They were very
disappointed, but they wanted to be
positive, so they bought a home pregnancy
test. By the time I told my parents, my
boyfriend was home, and they were very
disappointed it him too. After I took my
home pregnancy test and that came back
positive, my mom made me decide what I
wanted to do. She gave me two choices, have
an abortion or move out of her house, that
would have left me with no where to go. We
couldn?t tell my boyfriends parents cause
they would never let him see me again. He
would also get kicked out of school. So me
and him decided on the abortion.
Afer I went to the doctors and got blood
tests, I had to make my appointment at the
abortion clinic. The appointment was set up
for my boyfriend and my 7 month anniversary.
He could not be with me that day cause his
parents didn?t know, neither did his school.
When I arrived at the clinic with my mom, we
went inside and I was amazed by how many
people were it there, especially young
girls, an the scary part was when they took
my blood and did my ultrasound, I didn?t
care how far along I was, I just wanted to
get it over and done with, so I didn?t have
to think about it. After I found out I was
six weeks and three days along, they took me
in to a room with a councilor. He asked me
questions like, "Am I sure I want to do?",
this and things like that. I had to say yes,
cause my mom was in there. Then she
told me what they were gonna do while I was
asleep. It scared me at first, but once I
was in the operating room. The anaesthesia
was in my body and I fell asleep I didn?t
feel a thing. After I woke up on the other
hand I was in a lot of pain... the cramps
were horrible. I was finally allowed to go
home after about 15 to 20 minutes in the
recovery room.
At the time of the abortion I didn?t
care, I didn?t want to get my boyfriend in
trouble, but nowthat I have came to my
senses, and learned that guys aren?t always
gonna be there I regret what I did. I know I
made two huge mistakes in life. The second
one is the worst one. I murdered a little
child. A child that I created, and not only
did I self mentally but physically too, by
the abortion. It can cause problems in
pregnancy when im ready to have a baby, and
when im married.
What Do You Think?
